Monday, 5 March 2018

Delilah - 2

He couldn’t believe the alarm clock had already gone off twice. He had no desire to get up.
“Jake, the clock’s ticking,” his ma called through the door. She didn’t open the door anymore without knocking first or at least announcing herself after catching him doing his business one morning on the corner of his desk. Though mortified, she didn’t bother him anymore. Now he had his privacy and could go about his business or whatever he wanted to.
He looked over at his desk beside his bed. He could do his business now, he supposed, but didn’t feel like it. The letter was there. So was Cormac McCarthy’s Blood Meridian although he preferred the other title The Evening Redness in the West. He’d fallen asleep trying to figure out how he could make his Rabbits better after reading of few pages of the western classic. There had to be something he could put in the story that would make an editor pay attention and still remain true to the story. His pencil was in the creased fold of the letter. He reached for the pencil and wrote down two words on the letter—mindless reproduction. People knew it happened but now the rabbits did too. It was an idea that struck him watching Charlton Heston in Planet of the Apes. Rabbits reproduced exponentially. What if rabbits were the intelligent species that decided to take over control of the planet; their uncontrolled multiplying was stupefying. That’s what he’d written.
“Jake!” his ma called. “You’re gonna be late.”
He took a page of Rabbits, folded it, then got out of bed, pulled on his faded jeans that were lying on the floor beside his bed where he’d left them the night before and tucked the page into his back pocket. One thing about cutting lawns was that clean clothes and a shower weren’t a prerequisite in the morning. He liked that. He slipped on a T-shirt that had Clint Eastwood on the front pointing the working end of Dirty Harry's giant .44 Magnum at someone to Jake's right. Summer was good. It didn’t take any time to get ready. He opened his bedroom door, walked to the bathroom and brushed his teeth. In the kitchen he sat down at the table in front of an empty cereal bowl with a boxes of Shreddies and Corn Flakes in front of him. A plate of toast was in the center of the table.
“I hope you don’t get off early today,” Ray said coming into the kitchen, “ya gotta get used to this 9 to 5 stuff sooner or later. Learn what it’s like to make a living.”
Jake didn’t reply thinking, what about living a life?
A car horn sounded outside.
Bobby “Red” Johnson picked Jake up most mornings. He was one of the lesser brains in their landscaping crew; one of the shovels, as Jake like to think of him. More of an acquaintance than a friend, Jake saw Red as a free ride even though he’d already learned there were no free rides in this lifetime. It saved his mother or Ray from driving him and from the inevitable conversation that happened every morning or any time he was around them. It would save him from college talk this morning too. He liked that.
“Gotta go.”
His ma had already packed his bag lunch. He grabbed a few slices of buttered toast.
“Its not good to start the day without breakfast,” she said handing him his lunch.
“Ma, I’m having toast,” he said, raising the toasted bread slices like they were pages from his story.
“You’re mother prepared you breakfast,” Ray started to say then seemed to change course mid-sentence. “You should be more grateful.”
Ray sat down at the table in front of a waiting mug of steaming coffee. Ray was a do-as-I-say not a do-as-I-do kind of guy.
“See you Jake,” his ma called.
Jake waved. He stuck his feet into his unlaced Kodiaks then reached for the doorknob. His hand went to his back pocket. The folded page of Rabbits was still there but he didn’t have a pencil. He never knew when he might need it. An idea, a few words maybe, just something he would want to jot down and not forget. He hustled back to his room and grabbed the yellow HB pencil off his nightstand. He walked by the partially open door of his closet. For an instant, he thought of Delilah. He hadn’t looked at or touched Delilah for two days. He knew because he'd counted. She was never far from his thoughts. He often enjoyed just the thought of touching her.
With Rabbits in his pocket and a pencil in his hand he left his bedroom.
*  *  *
“What are you doing?” Mr. Whiteside said, surprising Jake from behind. “No, what the fuck are you doing?”
Mr. Whiteside had come out of nowhere.
The shovel was leaning against Jake’s thigh. His page of Rabbits was in one hand, his yellow HB pencil in the other. He had crossed out the word hurt and was writing the word betrayed above it. He had found another way to make Rabbits better.
“Give me that fuckin’ thing,” Whiteside snarled. “I’m payin’ you to dig dirt not to write words on a god damn piece of paper.”
He snatched the paper from Jake’s hand and crumpled it up. He tossed it in the hole they were digging.
“If you want a job you’ll get your damn ass in gear. If you’re not done today, don’t bother comin’ tomorrow.”
Whiteside left.
Red stepped up beside Jake.
“Dude, you can’t be doing that here. Yer gonna fuck yourself.”
“I gotta do it some time.”
“Then pay more attention. It’s gonna cost you yer job.”
Red bent down and retrieved the paper out of the hole. He uncrumpled the crumpled up page.
“No, no, no, don’t!” Jake pleaded.
“What is this?” Red asked. He started to read.
He was but seconds reading what was on the page.
“Dude this is good.”
“Thanks.”
“No, I mean this is a good story.”
Jake felt guilty for his earlier thoughts about Red, doubting Red was even literate.
Red looked back at the page appearing to read more.
“What are you doing here?”
“Trying to make money to go to school,” Jake lied.
“I know what you mean,” Red said immersed in what he was reading. “Where’s the rest?”
“At home. I got stuck on this part last night and was trying to figure out a way to make it work better.”
“You send this anywhere?”
“Yeah,” Jake said, his hand back on the handle of his shovel, “only about twenty-seven places.”
“And ….”
“They just keep sending it back. I don’t think they even read it but I don’t know what else to do.”
“Well don’t stop, I can tell you that much.”
“Thanks.”
“But you better get the shovel moving before Whiteside comes back. He’ll have your nuts in a vice for sure. Trust me, you don’t want that.”
             “My nuts are already in a vice. One more person squeezin’em won’t matter much.”
***
Part 3 will follow in the coming weeks. If you haven't read The Actor or The Drive In, you can purchase them from Amazon, Barnes & Noble, Chapters-Indigo or wherever you get your books. 

Sunday, 28 January 2018

Delilah - 1

Here's part one of a new story--Delilah. After the positive responses from my last story, Beneath The Surface, come visit Jake's world ... for a while... 




The sky was such an inviting blue he almost believed he could reach up and put his hand in it. As he watched the clouds float by they seemed to tempt him to come away with them. Their gentle curves reminded him of Delilah who was never far from his thoughts. He could all but feel her  smooth roundness. He wondered now whether he would get a chance to touch her tonight or even just look at her.
“Jake! Dinner!”
The heavy voice of his step-dad calling from the house through the screen of the open back door vanquished all thought of Delilah. Like a loud thunderclap it brought him back to the field he was lying in behind the house.
Jake figured it was pretty close to dinner but he didn’t feel ready to come in and leave the quiet of his thoughts and imagination. He wasn’t hungry. But dinner wasn’t about to wait for him. Nor was Ray.
The letter had come. They didn’t like Rabbits. It wasn’t quite what the magazine was looking for. Jake thought Rabbits was good—really good. But now it didn’t matter. It was almost funny. When things didn’t go as he thought they should his thoughts turned to Delilah. It seemed things didn’t go as planned most of the time anymore. But when he touched Delilah, she had a way of making what was wrong not feel so bad. Just gazing at her would make him feel better.
“Get your skinny ass in here now!” Ray yelled. “Your mother has a nice dinner all prepared.”
Jake knew that dinner would be mac and cheese and a cheeseburger because that’s what ma always made, on the rare occasion, when she made dinner.
Jake looked back up at the sky as the clouds morphed into the heart-shaped nose of a dragon. Its piercing eyes seemed to look inside him. A tongue stretched out toward the ground like a walkway—a walkway to the sky; a stairway to heaven. Then the eyes changed. Like Frosty’s dark eyes of coal they transformed into the Grinch’s narrowing stare, eyebrows squeezed V-shaped, the green irises pushed to the top of their sockets as the Grinch’s wide lips spread in a not-so-generous grin.
“Jake, get your butt in here!”
Jake didn’t move; he squinted and watched as the dragon’s head became the main mast and sail of a tall ship. His non-response to Ray’s command would set the tone for dinner like the sail would set the ship’s course into the coming tempest.
Delilah would have to wait until later.
“What were you doing back there?” his ma asked as he came to his place at the kitchen table between his ma and Ray, perpendicular to the invisible line that joined them.
“Nothin.”
Jake sat down, picked up his fork and stabbed a couple of cheesy noodles from beside the cheeseburger on his plate. His ma knew how to make mac and cheese like nobody’s business.
Looking at the noodles on the end of his fork made him think of his dragon-in-the-sky’s inevitable slayer. Jake was no dragon slayer, more awed by the dragon’s presence. The dragon slayer was near enough though sitting at the dinner table right beside him.
“So, what was going on today?” Ray asked.
“Not much.”
“Did you go to work?”
“For a few hours. Mr. Whiteside sent us home early.”
“Early?”
“He didn’t have any more work after we finished mowing the lawn in the morning. Told us to go home and enjoy our afternoon.”
“Wow,” Ray said, “that never happens to me. You ever think about gettin' another job?”
“No, why?”
“To help yer mother pay for tuition for one.”
“Tuition?”
“College?”
Jake hesitated. He had no intention of going to college. He’d said it a million times. But every time he said it, detonated another argument. Why would he go to college and waste his and his ma’s money when all he wanted to do was in his head and hands.
“Yeah, maybe,” he said. It was an acknowledgement, not a signoff.
He looked down at his plate. The noodles were in disarray yet every noodle looked the same. The melted cheese stuck them together. Ketchup made the noodles look like guts splayed out on his plate. But it really wasn’t what Jake thought guts looked like. Still not hungry, he picked up his burger and took a bite. He didn’t feel like dressing it.
“Don’t you want anything on your burger?” his ma asked scrunching up her face in feigned pain.
“Nah, I’m not feelin’ it.”
“What are you doing tonight?” his ma asked.
“I dunno.”
“What time do you start tomorrow?” Ray asked.
“Eight.”
“Supposed to rain tomorrow,” his ma added.
It hadn’t rained in days.
“You know yer mother is gonna to have a hard time payin’ yer tuition for college,” Ray went on. “You know that don’t you?”
“She doesn’t have to,” Jake said. The topic was coming up like vomit. He had no interest in even talking about it.
“What do you mean by that?” Ray asked holding a fork full of mac noodles in front of his mouth. “You gonna suddenly strike it rich?”
“No, I’m taking a year off.”
“We’ve been through this Jake,” his ma said. “You take a year off and you’ll never go back.”
“Go back! I don’t wanna go!” he shouted suddenly enraged. It was like they thrived in making him angry. He set his fork down beside his plate and stood up.
“Good night.”
***


Thus ends Part One. Parts two and three will follow in the coming weeks. If you haven't yet read The Actor or The Drive In you can get them from Amazon, Barnes & Noble and Chapters-Indigo or pretty much wherever you find books.
The Actor